Doubts

isn't it hard to think when you know that someone doesn't trust you?
don't you just hate it when someone has doubts about you?

it's like standing on top of a log in the raging ocean with a friend and you don't know if that friend will trust you and let you stay or just have a doubt on you and throw you away..
amf.. it really hurts to know that someone very spcial to you just throw away their trust because of a simple misunderstanding..very childish? but if you just know how it feels maybe you'll be as down as me..

i can spend the day just staring in my computer and think about why would someone have a doubt on me..i don't lie to someone special like "that person".. i hate it..i hate it..i hate it..i hate it..!!!!!!!!

why would there be a part of your life where you need to think about how to reconciliate with someone and say sorry when you've done nothing wrong???????????????????????

stupid!!!!!!
very stupid!!
d*mn..!!!!
d*mn it!!
sh*t!!
fcuk!!!
#@$%%#^#$^@#%!@#%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!