Matapos Ang Dalawang Buwan

ang tagal ko na din pala hindi nakapag post dito sa blog ko..
december na..
mejo madami na nangyayari sa second sem..
pero hindi ganun kasing ganda ng last sem..

napaka late na ang blog ko..
hindi ko na kasi ma-update sa baguio..
waaaaa....

BAGUIO!

miss ko na baguio.. haist.. :(

Sem Ender

wow naman,.
isang sem na yung natapos ko..
seven more sems to go.. (kung wala akong bagsak. :)) )
hindi mo pala mamamalayan ang oras kapag college..
lalo na kapag nasa malayong lugar ka..
konti lang kasi ang iniisip mo..
wala gaanong problema..
puro paperworks at acads lang talaga..
ang solemn din naman kasi kapag walang mga batang umiistorbo sa pag-aaral mo, diba?
wala ka na kasing iisiping ibang tao..
ikaw lang, sarili mo lang..
sa isang buong sem na natapos ko dito sa Unibersidad ng Pilipinas Baguio, sobrang dami kong natutunan..
hindi lang sa acads pero sa buhay na rin..
natutunan ko na hindi naman pala talaga ganun ka-seryoso ang buhay kolehiyo..
may mga oras parin na maari mong ilaan para sa sarili mo..
kung andito ka sa Baguio.. yung mga oras na yun, pwede mo gugulin sa paguukay sa session, ice cream sa session, gala sa burnham, kain ng fishball kay manong fishball, tambay sa sm, shot sa bahay ng blocmate, upo sa bar, overnyt sa second floor ng victory liner at kung anu anu pa..
marami na akong first times dito.. marami na akong natutunan dito..
sa tingin ko, hindi ko magagawang iwan ang UPBaguio..
sa araw araw ko dito, hindi ko ninais na malipat pa sa ibang parte ng UPSystem..
anu pa nga ba hahanapin mo?
konti lang kami sa campus dito, kaya tutok ang mga prof..
maliit lang ang campus, kaya madali ang student activities..
magagaling at mababait ang mga prof, madali ka matututo..
may dalawang canteen, lower at upper, masarap!!!! panu ka magugutom..
organized ang mga frats, soros at orgs..
maayos din ang student council..
at marami pang iba...............
kung ako ang tatanungin, ano nga ba ang favorite place ko sa UPB..?
siguro sa courtA, kay Inang Laya..
ang ganda kasi ee.. tago.. nature ang makikita.. at syempre yung mga naglalaro ng basketball.. sino nga ba yung naglalarong yun na pinapanuod ko?
sino pa ba..... edi mga blocmates ko.. kala mo kung sino noh?
tsk tsk tsk.. nagkakamali ka..
oo nga pala, hinding hindi ko makakalimutan yung mga bagong kaibigan na nakita ko dito..
nung una, akala ko magiging loner ako.. mahirap kasi mag-adjust sa ganito ee.. yung wala ka pang kakilala..
pero nung may na-meet akong friend, nagbago na lahat.. ang saya.. ang dami ko ng friends. :)
hindi nagiging lonely ang buhay ko dito..
lalo na yung isa kong friend na supeeeeeeeeeer ka-close ko.. :)
at yung madami kong friends.. :)
niel, lee, dad, tito arvin, tito flor, cha, lui at madaaami pang iba.. wieeee...
may friends na nga, may mga astig na prof pa..
may prof na isang text mo lang na shot, e ayan na agad.. ang astig talaga!!
may isang prof na sobrang bait!! may candy lagi after ng LE..
may isang prof naman na ayaw ng iba.. well, oo kasamanako dun.. ulikba daw oh..
mayron din naman na super cool sa lecture.. hirap nga lang ng exam.. pero ok lang yung last exam.. pasko na..
yung isa naman maraming absences, pero nung una lang.. after ng first few meetings, ayun umariba na ang attendance..
eto pa, super astig na kapag lecture niyo na, sulat ka ng sulat ng sulat................. til infinity..
hahaha.. yan palang naman mga nagiging prof ko..
sorry naman.. freshie palang..
kapag medyo tumagal tagal ako ng konti, marami pa kong new experiences at profs na makakasalubong..
ano pa ba?
hmm.. buhay boarding house..
masaya naman..
astig mga housemates ko! hehehe..
astig din ang rules dito.. hindi nasusunod!! yown!
isang sem palang ako dito pero ang saya na close na kami.. :)
hindi naman super close pero ok ok na kami sa isa't isa..
ang saya..
oh paano?
paluwas na ko papuntang manila..
sa susunod na ulit ha?
next sem na ulit.. :)

I Missed My Blog

ang tagal ko na hindi nag blog.. sadya lang ba akong busy o sadya lang talagang walang net.. haha.. BOTH..
last exam ko na tmrw! :)
can't wait to go home..
miss ko na Pasig..
akalain mo yun, na-miss ko Pasig..
more than a month na ko hindi umuuwi..
hehe..
siguro next sem mas hindi ako uuwi..
magtitipid ako.. whew...
grabe..
ang dami na nangyayaring new experiences dito sa baguio..
i love it here..
gusto ko dito nako magtapos ng college..
masyado akong maraming natututunan dito..
ang dami ko ding bagong friends..
natututo ako na magtipid.. (ows?!?!)
basta madami talaga.. :)

TAMBAY MODE..

haha.. eto na ang tambayan ko ngaun.. lol.. :)

Cut Off

hindi ako pumasa sa SOC SCI 13..
kulang ako ng 3%.. shhhhhhhhh**...
bakit ganun..
soooper amf..

http://yin-is-rofl.blogspot.com/

my new url..
since my blog was entered by outsiders and people keep on insulting me........
i changed my url..
let me repeat..

http://yin-is-rofl.blogspot.com/

STOP VIEWING ME

sa lahat po ng nag-iiwan ng mga kung anu anung salita sa chatbox ko..
wag niyo nalang po pag aksayahan to ng oras..
umalis na kayo..

nga pala..
gagawa na ko ng bagong blog..
sa mga interesado..
PM niyo lang ako.. :)

hindi ko na po maxado ilalabas ung blog ko na iyon..

It's Been So Long

shyokks...

tagal ko na palang hindi nakakapag post.. whew..
masyado na ata akong busy,, juskopo..

well,, ngaun naman tambay lang ako sa mCdo with ....... hahah.. curious?
si janiel kasama ko.. :)
tingin ka sa ba kong posts..
may picture siiya somewhere there.. :)

o cea cea..
gawa pa siya ng report..
:)

Six Hours Of Butt-Aching Travel Tomorrow

babalik na ko sa Baguio bukas..
anim na oras na pagsakit ng pwet nanaman dahil sa byahe..
buti nalang kasabay ko si iel, dad, at jenaz..
hindi ako mabobore.. :)
balik nanaman sa kabihasnan ng baguio..
sobrang na-miss ko din ang baguio.. kahit na apat na araw lang akong wala doon..
enjoy kasi ee..
lalo na ung mga taong kasama ko dun.. :)
ikaw, oo ikaw..
na-miss ko ung gala namin sa session..
akalain mo, isang buong araw na hindi kami nagkita..
nakaya ko un? ou.. haha.. kaso natutulala ako.. haha..
kilala mo kung sino ka.. haha..!!
basta aun... :)
baguio na ulit ako tomorrow..

Depressions?

bakit kaya ganun?
bigla ako na-depress..
ang sama sama ko pala dati..
buti ni-promise ko na sa sarili ko not to play anymore..
masyado lang ako nasaktan dati sa taong love ko, kaya lang siguro ako nagkaganun..
sana po maintindihan niyo..

sabi nga kasi nila..
kapag masyado kang inlove sa taong umiwan sayo o iniwan mo, posibleng maging player ka hanggang makahanap ka ng isa pang taong magmamahal sayo ng totoo at mapapakita sayo na hindi pa gumuho ang mundo dahil sa huling minahal mo..

this summer, dahil nawala yung taong love ko.. syempre nasaktan ako..sinu ba namang hindi diba? naghanap ako nang mapagbabalingan.. hindi ko alam, nakakasakit na pala ako ng iba.. hindi ko lang kasi mahanap yung love that i desire and need.. siguro noon hindi pa dumating yung tamang guy na mabibigay sakin yung sagot kung bakit nawala yung unang love ko..

akala ko hanggang ngayong acad year, hindi ko parin siya makakalimutan.. but, i was proven wrong.. i met this guy, na napapasaya talaga ako.. lagi siyang nandyan kapag kailangan ko siya.. hindi siya nawawala sa tabi ko.. hindi ko namamalayan, i was falling for him na pala.. nawala lahat ng bitterness ko.. nawala lahat ng hatred at hurt na nafi-feel ko.. buti nalang pala, nakilala ko siya.. buti nalang pala, nag UPBaguio ako.. buti nalang pala, nag BSMath ako.. buti nalang pala.. soooobrang buti nalang..

sobrang laking pasasalamat ko kay God.. buti nalang binigyan niya ko ng isa pang chance para mag start over.. sobrang hindi ko na sasayangin itong pagkakataon na binigay ni God para maayos ko na ulit yung sarili ko..

hinding hindi na ako magbibigay ng hatred sa heart ng isang tao.. i'm making sure na itong taong ito that i have now, will never be hurt by me.. i'm gonna change my ways.. i'm gonna let God rule my life from now on..

sa'yo naman.. kung binabasa mo ito.. thank you soooo much.. you enlightened*churkie style* me.. sooooper thank you talaga.. :) lovelots*xoxo*

COMMENT

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tpos, please leave a tag on my chat box.. salamat!!!

Manila Again :)

wiiee..
wala lang may popost lang ako na mga pics.. :)



astig to.. basahin mo.. nakalagay yan sa window ng bus na sinakyan ko.. supposedly, emergency break glass siya... hahaha..






sooooooper missed frappe.. wahh.. :)

Bombo Radio.. LoveU Chancy..

grabe ang umaga kanina sa baguio..
lahat ng UPBians nagaantay ng masigabong announcement mula kay Chancy..
eto ang message na gumising sa diwa ko:

bmg.jenaz (06:18 am 07Aug09)
Unibersidad ng Pilipinas-Baguio WALANG PASOK! announced by Chancellor MACASANTOS..
Source: BOMBO RADYO

dahil dyan..
nagdiwang ang looblooban ko..
parang gusto ko sumigaw..
kaso ayoko bulabugin mga roomies ko..
wahaha.. :)

dahil din dyan..
maaga kaming nakauwi dito sa manila..
anim na oras ulit ng walang sawang sakit sa aking pwet..
ang init dito sa manila.. xp

bakit nga ba sinuspinde ang aming klase?
sa kadahilanang napakalakas ng ulan sa baguio, ayon..
napilitan si Chancy na isuspinde ang klase..
may LE pa naman kami ngaun sa HIST II.. wahaha..
isa yun sa mga pinagdidiwang ko..
na-move nanaman ang LE sa histo..
laking tuwa.. hindi pa kasi ako humahawak ng notebook..
salamat chancy..
salamat bombo radyo..
salamat jenaz..
salamat bagyo..
yey!!!!!!!

Public Request

since madami ngtatanung kung sino daw ba ang lagi kong kasama dito sa baguio..
eto po..
magpopost na ko ng pics.. wahahaha.. :)

eto nga pala si janiel.. :)

eto naman si lee.. :)

yan.. hahaha..
may iba pa kaming mga kasama dito..
pero wala pa kong pics with them ee.
hehe.. nxt tym .. xp

hehehe.. sige na.. buh-bye..

Back To Baguio

bye bye manila..

uwi na ko sa baguio..

love you all..

Ano Ang Kaibahan Kapag Sinabing "Mahal" Kesa "Love"?

ano nga ba ang pinagakaiba ng mga salitang "love" at "mahal"?
sa literal na ibig sabihin e nagkakapareho lang naman sila..
pero bakit kapag sinasabihn ka ng "mahal kita," parang iba kesa kapag "i love you?"
tinanong ko ang mga iba kong mga kaibigan kung ano ang pananaw nila sa kaibahan ng dalawang ito..
mas may "impact" lang daw tlga kapag mahal ang sinabi sa iyo..totoo nga ba?
dati ko pa kasi iyan tinatanong sa sarili ko..
sabi din kasi ng pinsan ko, dati, na iba nga raw talaga kapag mahal ang sinasabi..
mas sweet ba talaga pakinggan kapag tagalog?
oh talagang sa bihira na tayo makarinig ng salitang ito eh masyado tayong nafflatter kapag nasabihan tayo?
ewan ko lang ha.. pero may impact nga talaga kapag sinabihan ka ng "mahal kita"..
syempre lalo na kapag "mahal mo din" ung taong nagsabi sa iyo nun..
oh db? bonggang bongga.. :)
wiee...
sabi naman nung isa kong friend.. hindi naman daw un sa salita ee..
anu naman daw kung sabihan ka nga ng ganyan.. e kung hindi nmn pinapakita sayo or pinapa-feel.. edi wala din..
may point siya diba?
so ako naman ee ngtatanung lang..
free kayong sumagot.. sige go lang.. magcomment ka lang..
kahit mag anonymous ka lang.. basta mabigay mo ung opinion mo sige lang..
this is a free country.. :)
so ikaw..anu nga ba kaibahan ng pagsinabihan ka ng "mahal" kesa "love"???

L9 Gala Galore

wieeee..
super gala galore ako today with my high school friends.. :)
we surely missed each other.. :)
ang tagal na din namin hindi nakakapag bonding ng ganto..

Anne Rice, Still The Best Vampire Novelist

anne rice is the author of the vampire chronicles..
she have already written 10 books on it..
also, she have many other books that are related to the topic..
upon reading her books, i can say that she really is very good in discussing and storytelling about vampires..
i was mortified, while i was browsing through a bookstore, when my friend let me read the back of another vampire book(not rice's).. it was written there that *insert name of author here*, the best vampire novelist since anne rice..
i soooper disagree..
how can they tell that *insert name of author here* is better than anne rice? she nearly written five books about the topic..
anne rice really tells about how vampires live and how they carry on with living with humans and stuff.. but *insert name of author here* just goes on and on and on about a love story..
whew..
all i can say is,,
Anne Rice still is and will always be the Best vampire Novelist. :)

Ang Uno Kong Essay

Each of us has his/her own identity to live up to. How we see ourselves may be different from how others see us. Other people’s perceptions depend on our attitudes and how we carry ourselves. We can’t stop other people from misjudging us because we can’t show our true selves in just a short period of time. Also, we shouldn’t expect everyone to like us because we can’t please everybody.
Throughout my life, I always have evaluations of myself and now is one of those times, the only difference is that this one is required, I have a hobby of posting my self evaluations in my blog and reading the comments of my friends about it.
I think that since I became independent and responsible for myself, I’ve been through many changes in my attitude and even in my way of living. I’m learning and going through a lot. I need to adjust to my surroundings and the atmosphere here in Baguio, especially at school; College is much too different from high school and Baguio is very different from Manila. I know that I will survive and I can face all of the challenges that go off.
As I see myself now, I remained simple, I still am childish, and there are often times that I am lazy; I still am in love with pasta and reading novels still is my favorite past time. I realized that I am being a snob to those that I do not know; also, I lost my confidence, I don’t know how to say no and I don’t know how to get mad. Maybe because of the change in the environment and the people that I am coping up with triggered me to lose my confidence and have changes in myself.
I asked some of my new friends what they think about me and how they see me. Some told me that their first impression was that I was snobbish; some said that I look and act childlike, and some even said that I look like I study a lot. Their comments made me laugh and I ended up telling them that we’ll just see if the way they see me really perceives who I really am. Currently, my friends and I are getting along very well; I asked them if their first impression of me is really how I am. They said that if someone really learns about who I am when with friends, they end up knowing how fun I am to be with and how jolly I am. They found out that I am not snobbish and I can be lazy at times, but being childish is really my nature.
Seeing that I have changed a lot, I pledge to change for the better. I plan to change being snobbish and I need to be friendlier, I should mingle with other people. I aim to develop my confidence and cope up with everything that I will be facing throughout my stay here in Baguio. I should learn how to say no and shouldn’t be intimidated by other people. I am not saying that right after this self-evaluation I will immediately change, but I will take it step by step until I reach the change I want to have.
Ten to 15 years from now, I see myself with a family that is happy and successful; a family with a consistent business to fulfill all of our needs. I also see myself as a professional mathematics tutor with my own tutorial center. I will do my very best just to live up to this dream, How? By studying hard and finish my studies here at UP. As they say, a graduate of the University of the Philippines always is successful and ends up getting high-end jobs and is in demand.
Evaluating myself really helps me to change some of my bad habits and enhance the good ones that I have, also developing skills that I think I’m not good at. I see how I’ve changed since the last time I had an evaluation and if I became worse or better. But, even if some things had changed, I can still say that what others see now is still the same me as I’ve been since the very beginning.

I Surely Missed Manila

nasa manila ako ngayon..
bonggang bonggang pagod ako sa byahe..
ang layo talaga ng baguio..
sorang na-miss ko talaga manila.. :)

Damn Hell I Missed Blogging

sobrang tagal ko na dito sa baguio..
antagal ko na hindi nakakapag-online..
miss na miss ko na blog ko..
late na late na nga ee..
sa mga sumusubaybay sa blog ko.. salamat..
patuloy niyo parin akong subaybayan.. :)
paminsan minsan naman mag susulat parin ako dito..

masyado lang talaga akong maraming ginagawa..
miss ko na PASIG, miss ko na PASIG SCI..
miss ko na lahat..
pero anung magagawa ko? amdito ako sa baguio.. kailangan ee..
required..

madami na akong natututunan dito..
maging independent ang una sa lahat..
nagluluto ako para sa sarili ko..
nagbubudget ng pera.. lahat lahat ng yan natututunan ko na ngayon..
kung ano ang hindi ko alam gawin dati e nagagawa ko na ngayon..
yung mga hindi ko inaasahan, ayon nangyari na lahat..
marami na akong bagong kaibigan..
minsan naiisip ko, bagong buhay na to..
basta.. kaya ko to.. :)

so ano?
kita kits nalang ulit tayo sa next blog post ko.. :)

My First Few Baguio Days

since i do not yet have internet connection in our boarding house, i keep track of what i do..hehe.. like a little diary.. :)

JUNE 14, 2009

my adventure starts now..
just a few more hours before my family leaves..
i'll be left alone here in Baguio to learn how to be independent and learn more about life..
i'm somewhat scared because i don't know any of these people and i find it hard to make friends when i'm by myself..
good thing ate Nina is easy to befriend..
she is Kuya Bon's pamangkin and she's been staying here for a long time now..
i haven't met my roommates yet, but i'm looking forward to..
i also feel a little excited to learn alot about life by MYSELF..

whew..finally, i'm in my boarding house already..
i just finished unpacking all my stuff and putting them on my cabinet.. :)
i'm trying to fit in with all my other housemates..
i hope it woudn't be that hard..
the first thing i need to do is to talk to them and be acquainted..
i dunno what i will do if mama leaves me here later..
maybe i'll just be talking to ate Nina, mainly because i don't know any other housemate yet..
i've already been acquainted with ate Hannah but we didn't get to talk much..

so, update you up for later ok?
imma go down stairs.. :)

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my family left already..
before they go, mama told my other housemates to watch after me..
i met ate Nikki and ate Janelle..
ate Nikki told me that she once lived in ugong, that was about four to five years ago, but i really don't see her much..
maye i already saw her but i just can't recall..
i texted up Ken and Felly..
they told me that they just arrived and found out that there will be a Freshman Assembly tomorrow morning at nine..
i told them that we should all go together, they agreed and we talked about meeting up in SM City tomorrow morning..
i saw ate Kim just now.. she ust went into the room and apologized that she left the room unclean..
i said it was okay.. then, she went out..
i forgot..
mama cried before they left..
i didn't expect that she would, but like she hugged me then burst into tears..
maybe i got a little carried away and cried too..
waaaaaaa.....
super dyahe..
now, i'm alone in our room...
i'm gonna finish it up now..
i guess nothing much is going to come up..
bbye now..

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well, i was wrong, something went on..
i cooked corned beef.. yeah for some it's not a big deal but like, for me, it is..
supposedly, i was going to eat sausages for dinner..
cause i don't know how to cook..
but then, ate Nina asked me what i will eat..
i was gonna say sausages but i was afraid that you know.. haha..
i told her that i'll just eat corned beef and "prito" it..
whew.. i did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha..
after we ate, we chatted a little bit in her room..
then when i went back to my room ate Kim talked to me..
we got acquainted, and now, i feel a little okay.. :)
so, gudnyt..
imma sleep now. need to go to school tomorrow..
bye now..



JUNE 15

whew.. waiting for my noodles to cook..
it's lunch time and since i dunno how to cook, ok na tong noodles.. :)
ate Nina is still asleep, i think..
my roommates are downstairs eating their lunch..
i just got home..
i met with Ken, Fely and Aika..
we went to UP and visited the Lourdes Grotto..
and OMG the grotto was so high up..
we had to climb like super many stairs..
good thing we did it..
haha.. we lit candles, one each and prayed a little..
i hoped for guidance during my stay here in baguio..
o yeah, it's my first day that i'm alone..
i hope i can do it!!!! :)
wish me luck.. ahaha..

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two of our other housemates arrived today..
ate Mau and ate Beth..
i got along with them naman easily kasi ate Kim and ate Hannah helped me..
since i was sooooooo hungry and i need to buy drinking water..
i just waited for the rain to stop then i went to sm..ALONE..
ate Hannah asked me to buy her an umbrella.. so, i looked for it first before doing the groceries..
i bought water then snacks then a yum burger from jolibee..
whew...
when i was done, damn it, the rain poured so hard and the line for the taxi was so long..
i walked home, in the pouring rain, carrying a 5-liter water bottle..
but it was cool.. twas an adventure.. :)
now i'm home.. :)


JUNE 16,2009

just got home..
this is my first day as a college student..
it was fun really..
i got to meet all sorts of people and i have a new friend..
her name is Lee.. she approached me at our first class.. which is PE..
she's cool and we got along real good.. :)
after our first class, we circled the school and tried to look for our rooms..
our room assignments are so far away from each other, good thing we have long breaks..
we only had four subjects for the day..
math17 which is our 5units class, is our main class..
sir nathaniel is our block adviser.. :)
i think i'm gonna like it here..
there are three students nga pala na Lee and I don't really like..
i think they're mayabang but, i dunno..
hahaha..

how would i describe my first day?
SUPPAH FUN..


wieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... my first days here in Bgauio are supah fun..
now im at a pasta house just to connect to the internet. haha

A Few Hours Til I Go To Baguio

wiiee...
savoring my last hours here in our house..
parang hindi babalik eh nuh?
wa..
my new life is going to start.
living independently..
i hope i can..
whew...

Unrequited Love

i'm currently reading the book Unrequited Love..
i'm almost done.. i learned alot about stalking and being stalked..
i dunno why i read the book..
maybe it's because i had a stalker.. HAD..
good thing i don't see much of him nowadays..
it's a great relief that he's not following me around anymore..
i was so scared of him that i hardly go out..
i told some of my friends about him and they told me to ignore him..
but, how could i ignore someone that follows me around..
what if he's a psycho? or like, obsessed with me or something..

it all started on the first month of SY08-09..
together with two of my schoolmates, we ride the trike to school every morning..
we meet up at the baranggay hall and who ever comes first has to wait, eventually..
i began to notice him on the second week..
he was always right on time when i get out of the house and walk to the meeting place..
he stares at me while i walk, and even when i was just waiting for my trike buddies..
once we go and walk to the trike bay, he follows us..
then one time, he followed the trike and said "ingat" to me..
i was so shocked that he even have the guts to talk to me..
the next few days, he continued to follow me..
every morning he was there..
then, when i can't get any more of it..
i tried a new way of going to school..
i rode a jeep.. but suddenly he came and rode that jeep too..
i was terrified.. when i got down at the sandoval bridge, he didn't follow.. i was relieved..
i guess he was shocked that i went down..
a week after that, i bought something from a store near the baranggay hall..
he was there.. while i was walking back to where i will ride the jeep, he followed me..
he asked for my number.. at first, i was ignoring him..
but then, he shouted my name.. super shocked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i asked him where he got my name..
he told me that his brother was my classmate before..
hate hate hate..
i didn't give him my number and became all suplada..
after that, he stopped following me..
but, there are still some instances that i see him staring at me and glaring..
sh**!

i just hope he won't follow me to baguio. hahaha

My 100th Post

wow..
i can't believe that i have already posted up a hundred..
i am really enjoying blogger..
next thing you know, you might be reading my 200th post..
some of my friends are using other blog sites, but i choose to stay here at blogger..

expressing myself using my blog is like really cool cause i can say whatever i want and nobody cares..
before, i only write on paper..
writing is like a way that i can freshen up my mind and loose all the worries and problems i have.. i write songs, poems and some other stuff just to feel relieved and let out all the feelings i have inside..
but now, i found a new way to express myself.. and it's by having a weblog...
it's better cause i know that no matter how much time passes by, i still have copies of what i've typed, and that it won't be thrown away like paper does.. haha..
i reflect using some of my old blog posts..
reading everything from the start to the last post, shows me how i've changed for the past two years that i have been using blogger..
the things that changed on how i write, how i express, how i feel, and even on my attitude..
there are times that when i read my old posts, i just burst in laughter, and remember how childish i was and what happened during a period of time..
haha..

my cousin shella was the person whom i got the idea of having my own blog..
i thank her cause if she didn't' i would've been using paper by now.. haha..
she encouraged me and helped me, now look where i am..
down to my 100th post..
i can hardly believe it..

people who read my blogs..
thank you!
people who criticized and will criticize my posts..
thank you!

i'll be here for a very long time..
i won't stop blogging..
i won't stop expressing how i feel, how i emote, and everything..
i love blogging..
:)

i love all of you who likes my posts..
i love everyone who visits my site..
thank you i love you!
i love blogger!

Loving His Company

as what is says in the title..
i really like hanging out with him..
even though we have other friends with us, even when we're alone..
i'm happy that i met him and thankful that i get to be with someone as cool as him,,

:)

Say It Again..

i dunno why i'm super liking the song by marie digby..
here's the lyrics.. :)

The thing about love, is I never saw it coming
You kinda crept up and took me by suprise
And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wondering
Is this true? I wanna hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a litter louder
Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love
Say it again

The thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there's no end in sight
The thing about me is that I really wanna let you open the door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a litter louder
Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love

And it feels like it's the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

When you tell me you're in love

Say it again


playing it beside him is even cooler..

So Happy When I'm With .....

hahaha..
nice title huh?
made you think?

well.. i spent like half an hour or so with him..
we were with friends and i really enjoy his company..
my friends and i tried to hang out with him and luckily his friends and my friends jived..
i really like him.. [proven]
haha..

oh well..
i need to go now..
i'm being timed..hahah.. :)

Sorority Life

wiee..
super enjoying facebook..

New Laptop

finally..
my laptop has been reconfigured and i can connect it to the wi-lan in our house..
woohoo!!!!
happy!!!!!!!!!

How Dumb Of Me

so dumb!!!
i always forget where i keep all my stuff..
a minute i can remember it then after awhile, tada!, completely lost..
damn!!!!!!!!

May Sweetness Daw

nakakatawa yung napagusapan namin ng ninang ko after my friends left..
girl talk..
haha.. eto ung scene..

Ninang: bf mo ba un? (reffering to *****)
Rem: ha? diba nga hindi..
N: ows?
R: oo nga.. bakit?
N: e bakit may sweetness?
R: hala.. anu sweetness dun?
N: e basta meron!!
R: hahahaha... ok.. hahaha.. *rofl*

Someone Special

currently..
someone special is reading my blog..
yiiheeee..
i'm posting this just for him..
lots o' love..
muaa...

Another Day, Another BORING Day

ang aga ko magising ngaun..
hindi ko tuloy alam kung ano ang gagawin ko..
hindi naman kasi ako normal na nagigising ng ganitong oras e..
ang pangit pa naman ng mga palabas sa Nick at Disney kapag umaga..
sino jan may alam ng magandang gawin?
hmmmm..
i think i'm gonna be super bored today..
i have no plans..
do you?
hehe..
wieee..

Simply Bored

got nothing to do but stare at the computer screen..
wieee..........
can't wait..
for..................
JANUARY!!!!!!!!

Happy Yet A Little Disappointed, But Still Happy

i was supposed to leave for baguio today..
but the heck, the start of classes was moved to another week..
sooooooooo, i have to stay here in Pasig for yet another week..
there are so much perks but there are some other things that made me disappointed..

the perks:
1. i can still "gala" with my friends here..
2. i can still go out with some of my other friends that promised to go out with me before i leave.
3. i have more time to think up all the stuff that i have to bring to baguio..
4. i can buy more things to bring.. *haha..lol

the disappointments:
1. i was so excited to go to baguio and explore..
2. i was eager to see Eunice and my other friends there..
3. it'll be hard for me to cope up with the weather if i stay here longer..

i dunno why, but i'm super confused if i should be happy about the summer extension..haha
wa!!!!

uber excited pa naman ako pumasok..
gusto ko na pumunta sa baguio..
gusto ko na gumala dun..
gusto ko na maka-meet ng new friends..
i wanna explore!!!!!!

Can't Break Free

may ganun?
haha.. wala lang akong malagay na title kaya iyan nalang..
kung maisip mo man o ma gets mo.. galing mo.. ahaha..

o cea cea..
basahin mo nalang ang kwento ko..

sa kadahilanang papunta na ko ng baguio..
marami akong maiiwan dito sa pasig.. yun yun oohh.. tagalog!!
kung sinusubaybayan mo ung blog ko, alam mo na na-hurt ako..
kakahurt ko lang diba?
oh ayan..
walang kadala dala..
may bago akong nakilala.. me ganun??? hahah
hindi naman ako padalos dalos nuh..
hindi ako ngpaligaw..
hehe..
eh ayon, seryoso daw siya ee.
kea sabi ko kung maghihintay siya, edi go.. :)
after college pwede na ko mag bf.. (siguro)
*four years..woah!!!!*
kilala mo ba siya?
wooot..haha..
oh basta..
seryoso nga kea siya?
tignan nlng natin..
kung maaantay niya ako,,
edi proven na seryoso nga talaga siya..
sabi ko sa kanya..
if ever magka-gf siya habang hinahantay niya ko, wala na..haha..
oh..kung binabasa mo to, sinabi ko un sayo diba? ehehe..

o ayan na..
add niyo ko sa facebook..!
rem.cruz2108@yahoo.com

Ang Kulit Ko Daw

oo.. aaminin ko na nga..
super makulit talaga ako..
kung hindi niyo yun matatanggap edi wag..
haha.. kapal ng mukha eh nuh?

meron kasing isang tao sa outside world na nakulitan daw sakin kaya umayaw..
naku?
e sorry naman.. kung kakulitan ang nakikita mo sa pagiging thoughtful ko sayo, well..
GOODBYE!!!! haha..
i don't care if i like you sooo much, hell with you kung simpleng kakulitan ko lang e aayaw ka na..
tsk tsk..
bahala nga siya.. haha *bitter???
sus.. nakakainis lang kasi hindi naman ata napakalaking reason yun diba??
anu ba yun..
kasalanan ko ba na i care so much for him?
na i just want to know if he's safe?
na i always want to know kung ok ba siya..?

sus,,,
kung ayaw niya ng ganun edi wag..
andami kayang tao na wala lang pakielam..
nako nako...
hindi ko nalang siya pipilitin kung ayaw niya..
kung hindi niya ko tanggap kung sino man ako at kung ano ako..
siguro hindi talaga siya yung tamang guy para sakin..
maghahantay nalang ako ng taong makakaintindi sakin..
tsaka ung tanggap kung sino talaga ako..
diba diba????

Oficially A Man Hater, Let Math Get All The Love

wiiee...
i can't believe that i trusted someone who i don't really know that well..
i guess i just got a bit, well a lot, caught up in me liking him that i forgot to think everything through..
well..like what i said in my previous post, if everything between us doesn't go well, i'll just have to wait for the right guy.. :)

the waiting starts now.. hehe.. :)

*trying to love myself more and more*

You're A Trainwreck But I Woudn't Love You If You'd Change

whuttahellovah title..
haha..

it's just a statement on how i will love the super special person i have in my life right now.. :)
uh uh uh..maybe you're thinking he's my boyfriend, ah well... NAH!!!
hehe,, not yet.. assuming??!!! hahahaha.. :)

hmm.. there's this guy that i really like..
but as i said before, i'm not gonna hurry up on things..
i'll take everything step by step, little by little, until i realize if i really love the guy..
i won't just barge in and let him have me that fast.. :)
i've already learned alot.. from where? hmm.. ask me.. haha.. :)

God knows everything, and i believe that whatever is happening to me now, it's His plan..
so, i just need to make the right decisions, think everything thoroughly, and maybe, just maybe, my life will end up good and happy.. :)

right now.. i think i'll just enjoy the remaining summer days.. last few days here in Pasig, go out with my friends.. hang with him.. :)

back to the guy.. i already told myself that if i can't find the love in him, i guess, i'll just have to wait, for a long time, for the right guy for me.. if it's not him, i hope it's someone a lot like him.. :)

hmm.. all i want to do know is to talk to him and settle everything.. i can't understand what going on between the two of us.. it gets me confused whenever i think about it and my mind gets a wee bit boggled.. maybe if we talk in person, my mind can get plenty of rest.. hehe.. :)

*i'm noticing alot of smileys..hahaha*

well, back to the title..
i super like this guy just the way he is..
yes, people are noticing many imperfections in him, but for me, he's perfect.. :)
i won't ask for more, i don't want him to change..
even if he's a trainwreck.. even if he's crazy.. even if he's the most imperfect guy on the planet..
suppah love..

+boss+

Why Is Life So Confusing?..

have you ever a time in your life when you already moved on but then a certain someone keeps on bringing back everything?
damn hell..
it's like you want to go on with him but you don't know where you'll start..
like, whatever you do, you just end up confusing yourself..

Tama Na, Sobra Na

well..
naisip ko lang na iyon yung title..
haha.. wala lang..
naisip ko kasi na nagiging man hater na ako habang tumatagal..
it's also my fault, pero parang basta...
kung wala rin naman kasi yung mga gwapong lalaki, edi sana hindi ko sila nagugustuhan diba?
hindi rin ako masyadongt umaasa sa kanila tsaka hindi ko din iisipin na may chance..
o diba?
tama naman diba?
kung mali man.. ewan ko, haha.. pero para sakin tingin ko hindi nalang ako mag eexpect and lalong lalo hindi ko na seseryosohin ang kahit ano that has something to do with guys..
sobra na ata ehh..
o kaya siguro pinakita lang ni God sa akin na hindi lahat ng lalaki mabait and are who they are as who you see them..
hmhm..
siguro din kailangan ko lang antayin yung tamang guy na para sa akin..
and as of now.. WALA PA SIYA..
i'll just wait..
and maybe someone will come, who will be perfect for me..
and can spend every single day with me through eternity.. :)

Damn Wifi

sa kadahilanang nasira ang pc ko..
nasira din yung wifi connection ngaun na nagawa na ung pc..
anu ba yan.. parang ayaw talaga akong pagamitin ng lech*** pc...
pinagawa na nga, e hindi naman maayos yung sa connection edi parang wala lang din..
anu gagawin ko dun? mag games ng ofl?
wtf,,,
sayang lang yung pc na yun dun sa bahay.. ayan tuloy etong pc ng tita ko napagdiskitahan kong gamitin.,
haha..
meron na ba jan naririndi sa pagtatagalog ko?
sana naman wala.. *akala mo lang wala, pero meron! meron! meron!!!!!*
amp naman yan haha..

minsan na nga lang magtagalog eh..
haha,,
o sige na mag uupload pa ako ng pics sa friendster..
ilang dekada na ko hindi nakakapag upload dun ee..
nabubulok na mga luma kong pics..
hahaha...
etong cp ko.. napuno na ng mga pics na nararapat ko pang i-upload para sa ibang tao..
anu ba yan oh..
hahahahahahaha...
mag comment naman kayo sa mga post ko..
ba yan....!!!!!

hahah...
eto na talaga,.
aalis na ko..buh-bye..
:)

Certified UPian

whew..
last May 6th, 2009 i finished up everything that i need for UP Baguio..

i'm already done with my enrollment..
now, i'm a certified UPB student..
i already met new friends, and saw some old ones like Ken and Fely..
i met Eunice, Ella and Erika..but suddenly, Eunice told me that she backed-out.. awww.. :(
i think she and her mom had a problem with the enrollment..she was the first friend i had there.. how sad.. :(
i hope she can work things out and carry on with UP..

i already have a boarding house..
i will be bunking in with ate Hannah..
she is studying in UPB..
BS Comm..and she's nice..
i already saw the room..
it's comfy and i think there are no spooks there.. ha ha..
:)
i have my own bed separated from the twin bed..
my mom already gave the deposit for the room :)
yey! i think i'm all set..

all i need now are the things i'm gonna bring there...
gosh.. i need lots of clothes..
i'm not gonna have a uniform soooooo i don't want to be an outfit repeater...
hahaha...
but the hell..i'm broke..amf..
i need money!!!
i'll do anything just to earn it..
gdi!

well...tata for now..

Finally!!!!

yehey..
at long last..
my pc has been redone!
i can connect to the internet now.!
and my pc is not broken anymore..
how fun is that?? hehe.. :)

Effing Pc

happy may..
hehehe...

because i'm so darn effed up..magtatagalog na ko..
grabe..hindi ko inaakala na may na pala..
grabe..hehe..sira kasi ung pc ko sa bahay kaya hindi ako makapagpost ng bagong post.haha..
and super dami na ng nangyari sakin these past few days..
hehe..
ang taba ko na nga ata ee.
hindi kasi gumagana yung pagwowork out ko..hahah!!!
sana makabili na si yaya ng laptop..para may magamit na ko kahit pa sira ung pc ko..hahaha.. :)

wiieee... :)
sige na..
nakigamit lang kasi ako sa tita ko ng pc ee..
haist..sana magawa na pc ko..

Another Day..

wiee..
good morning..
it's 12:36 am..
:)

Bored

know anything a bored person can do?
my summer life is hell..

A VERY Boring Week

i have had nothing very productive to do the past week..
i spent half the time watching tv and the other half sleeping..
haha..
can you imagine how much time that is?.
and can you ever think of living a super boring summer?

i officially lost it..
i'm broke..
i'm not allowed to go freak shopping..
i'm not allowed even to go to malls..
i'm not even allowed just to go out or something..

some told me to just losen up and use my pc..
but hell.....
my pc is fcuked up..
i can't use it..
it can't connect to the damned wifi..
i'm using my cousin's laptop..
at least for once i can post something here in my blog and do something a little productive..

i might be going to Baguio this May..
maybe with my family, the whole extended family..
spend a week there.. and maybe make my way through the enrollment in my promised school. UPBaguio.. :)

i need something to ease up this fcuked up summer..
i want to go swimming or like go on a roadtrip with my high school friends..
i'm totally going to miss all of them and i don't want to lose any opportunity in being with them for the last time..
i am so unsure if we will have time to meet with each other again so i better grab every chance to be with them..

whew..
i want to eat..
but i'm too darn fat..
all i did the past week is to fatten myself up by just lying in bed anng wathing tv..
i think i didn't even leave the room for three days..
i just go out to have a bath and come back to watch tv again..
hahaha..
so to those who want to be fat just don't leave your room..
and after three days you'll end up gaining a few pounds..
hehe..

wow..i already thought of something to do this summer..
fatten myself up and then exercise to lose all the weight i gained..
wiieeeee..that's a nice idea..
*clap clap*

.....rem is thinking about someone very confidential........
*day dreaming*

oh yeah..thinking about that person always make me smile..
wieeeeeeeeee...

well..i'll go now..
maybe i'll post something new later tonight if i don't have anything better to do while waiting for his text message..woot..

buh bye..

Gradweyt Na Ako..

i'm an official graduate of Pasig City Science High School..
APRIL 3, 2009..
the 1st Commencement Exercises was held at the Tanghalang PasigueÑo..
wiiee....
GRADWEYT NA KO..
after all the hardwork!!!!
i'm a high school graduate!!
wiiieeee.....
sooo happy.. :)

Soon To Graduate..Hours To Go..

wiieee...it's our grad day.. :)
i'm so excited..
i can hardly feel any sadness right now;
but, i think later at the venue, my eyes will sore!!
i hope not..

just waiting for my mom to shout at me and tell me to prepare..
hehe.. just so you know, i'm the laziest person in the world!

whew..
this is it..
the wage for all the hardships..
for four years..!!egad!
for all the projects, exams, group works and the likes..
i think i'm gonna miss those but still, i'm happy that i went through that much and now i'm celebrating a very special day in my life..
later, i'll be proud to scream, "GRADUATE NA KO!!"

if ever you're a Pascian SENIOR and reading this,
congratulations!
this really pays-off all our endeavours..
sigh..i'm gonna miss you..
good luck and take care..
i love you! :)

i love this batch..
batch09..
first batch to graduate in Pasig City Science High School..
the BEST batch they have and will ever have..
BATCH 2009..
i'm proud to be a part of it.. :)

A Must Read

i just want to redirect you to Iza's page..
if ever you are reading my blog now, read the recent post on this site:
http://greenerthangreene.blogspot.com/

so cool!!

effed up

haaaiist..
ok.. tagalog..

nakakainis naman kasi o!!
misunderstood ako..
potek..
amf..
asar..
kainis..
ang epal..

haha.. o ayan.. tagalog yan.. astig..

Nice, Nice, Nice

hmm,,,
another boring day at school..
:(

nothing much to say.......

i have a new sun sim!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gloomy

i miss him..

Not Up-To Date

damn it..
this blog is missing out on everything!!

a lot has happened this past few days..
especially the 18th..
my "no fone day" turned out great..
i met someone new.. :)
a really really really cute someone..
hehe..

well..
what more..?
hmm..

about school..
hmm..
we don't do much at school..
we just go to school for attendance..
all you need to do there is bug your eyes out on grad practice..
and your vocal cords will scream "stop" with all the singing..
i can't get all those lyrics out of my head..
damn it..
singing every grad song three times makes me want to kill myself..
or kill the cd player..
haha..

well....
that's that..

A Saturday

i will go out with my classmates today..
:)

we're going to a church,,
and o yeah..

"iyakan blues"

FINISHED

the long wait is over..
"tpos na lahat ng paghihirap" - the echoing sound in school right after the senior's exams were finished..
deep breath..
graduation is near..
college life here we come..

we just finished the last set of periodical exams of our whole life..
yeah!!!!!!
i'm just too happy.. :)

Boring Last Month Of School

as it is in the title..
i don't have posts!!
damn..
my blog is getting really boring this month..
today is the eleventh and i only have 2 posts..
what do you call that..

we are having our periodic exams..
awe..
i think i'm doing bad at most of the subjects..
haha..
rem is flunking!!
at all subjects,,!!

well..
i think i should go now..

a lot of projects due tomorrow..
good thing there are no classes today..

road trip later.. haha

Oh Yeah, A Saturday

wooohh..
this saturday was supposd to be my resting time..
but with all those projects..
i can't even find time for a little peace and silence..

I Want A New Book..!

err..

i saw this book in National Bookstore, Ali Mall and i just can't stop craving about it..

i'm so excited on what revelations are inside that book..

damn it..

i badly want to buy it but i was broke that time..

amf..

if anyone would give me that book i'll owe my life to him/her..

err..

here's a picture of the book..

warped passages unravelling mysteries of the universe's hidden dimensions

by LISA RANDALL

Prom Night

well..
i like the last prom better..
this prom was just like going to a bar or something..
the sounds were like a little too odd for a prom..
rock and roll..
it was our last year and the sounds are like that..
how would we have time to mingle and stuff..
i didn't have a great dance like last year but the dance this year was cool..
i want to thank everyone who were concerned when i cried.. i love you guys..
take care PCSHS family..

here are some pics.. ::

with my best friend.. cha :)

with my jenner family

coper smile with my undie..

do the COPER SMILE..!!! :)

2 Hours To Go

whew..
the night we have all been waiting for..
the academy awards..

just kidding!
prom night is here again..
this will be my last prom 'coz i'm off to college..
i'm gonna miss my friends so better make the most out of this prom..
bg music : i wanna dance with somebody..

better finish getting ready..
nah! i'm too lazy to do that..
haha..
maybe i'll just prepare in the last minute..
just like what i did last year..
though i wasn't prepared at all last year..
it went out great..

damn.. i hope this one would be far better than the last one..
toodles..
wish me luck!!

UP road trip

me and my friends went to UP today..
haha.. my intro is like for a kindergarten kid..haha
we'll.. it was fun.. my feet got sore..
i missed out on all the fun at skool.. boo hoo..
our allowance was given out today..
and our prom practice..

wahh!!!
i badly want to go to UP..

sigh..

The Night Before The Prom

oh yeah..

only hours to wair for until prom night..

how would this prom end up to be? hmm.

haha..

i just hope it'll be 100x better than the last.. woah!

i'm looking forward to dance with all my friends..

this'll be my last HS prom..

better make the most out of it..

PLURK

http://plurk.com/simplyreille/invite

click it!!!!!

UPG.. damn..

my UP non-qualifier's slip just arrived..
i can't believe it, i have a higher grade than the others..
a can't even think about it that through the answers i put on that paper, i got that grade..
haha..
so much for jokingly answering it..

i'm going to UP tomorrow with some friends..
i think it'll be fun..
i always like hanging out with those people..
i hate being alone.. woah what am i saying.. rofl..

back to UP..
i hope i could get in one of the UP campuses..
i hope my UPG can fit even one course..
i hope there are available slots..
damn.. i don't know what to expect.!

i just wish that everything would go well and i will be satisfied with what will happen..
arrgh.. can't wait for tomorrow..
it'll be a miracle if bf would come with us..
haha.. in my dreams!! :)

well.. i'll just say bye bye now..
:)

Crazy....

it has been four days i think, since my last post..
the days had been super crazy and uber wierd..!

i have less time to go to the computer and just stare..
it's like i want to do something hard just to make time fly by..
arrgh..
i don't want to stay at home..
i want to go out.. explore..

haha..
nothing much to say now..
awkward.........

Why Am I Confused?

isn't it wierd that when you do something you just end up burying yourself in guilt?
oh my..
i'm feeling alot of guilt right now..
i'm super torn apart..



i'm so confused..
i don't understand anything..
i feel so dumb..
err..
i don't know what to do next..
eerie thoughts are coming in my mind..
what a day..

yah right,,
i need to do these election stuff..
i badly want to skip going to school tomorrow but i have to..
the SSG moderator like trusts me on this..

well..
bye for now..

I'm Dying

this is the worst day ever..

Post-Valentines

my eyes are still sore from last night..
it was my cousin's 18th birthday celebration..
we stayed up all night at her house after the party..

now, i got up early and went home..
i badly want to sleep but i have alot of things to do..
this comelec stuff is hard..
haha..

post-valentines..


hmm..
it's wierd i don't have a valentines post..
haha. i'm talking about pre- and post- of it but i didn't even have a VALENTINE post..

well,,
the birthday did good..
pics are at my friendster acct.. :)

http://profiles.friendster.com/reily21

so there...

Pre-Valentines Day

gud evening..

it's February 13..
two of my friends are celebrating their birthday..
--Febie and Danica-- happy birthday to you guys..

it's pre-valentines..
it's a Friday so everyone is like buying flowers and everything for their loved ones..
tomorrow the essence will not be felt, i think so..
since many couples see each other at school and such, they just can't like see each other on a Saturday without a complete reason, right?
well,, my cousin is having her debut tomorrow..
her birthday was last Tuesday but you can't celebrate a debut on a weekday right?
it won't be fun..
haha..

so, since tomorrow is the only day that everyone can go,
she insisted that her birthday be held tomorrow..
on Valentines Day..
wonder if she has a boyfriend to let her parent's meet..
i'm getting excited..

i want to have a date tomorrow with someone very special.. (a clue *****) yah get it?
but since my cousin lives in taytay, rizal..
we need to go earlier and help her prepare..
i don't have any time to go on a date or something..
i'll be open on Sunday..
but who the heck will go on a date on a Sunday?
haha..kidding..

hmm...
i have nothing more to say..
uhmm..
let me just think..
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still thinking...
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i just wanna myself why i'm thinking..
do i really need to have a long post today?
or am i just freaking stupid to write all those dots and finish this post with non sense..?
haha.. wierd..
well, that's all for tonight..
gud night..

happy valentines day!

A Sad Day

morning....

how could i know if this would be a sad day when it's just like 9 in the morning...
i feel very off when i woke up..
this "was" a very special day..
but it's turning out to be a dreadful one..
why?!!!
i just hope something or someone will prove me wrong..

Boring Emo Day

why do i feel like i'm very hungry today..?
they say i'm depressed but is that really it?
i kind of like spent the half of the day sleeping, a quarter eating, an eighth sudying, and another eighth just moving around or just unlocomotive or doing unfinished projects, or thinking, or any other stuff..

why do i feel like this?
it seems like some one or some thing passed away..
but like, no one or nothing didn't..
i'm just so wierd..

wierdness again!!!

i'm really not in the mood to write a blog right now..
my blog is missing out on all the fun..

til' the time i feel like writing!

Why Is Life Confusing?

i'm not in the mood to tell the story.. but it really is bad when a persong finds life confusing..

hate it!

Shih Tzu

we bought a new shih tzu today!!
it's two months old and it's very cute..!!
:)

Mind Reading Powers

i just wish we will have mind reading powers.!
if so, no one has to have doubts anymore.!
i don't want people asking about the truth..
they will ask you abut a certain thing and then when you answer they won't believe you..
what the fcuk do you call that?!!?
i just hate doubts.!!

Disappointed

what a big disappointment to all fouth year students of Pasig City Science High School..

our retreat was cancelled..
damn.. period.

My Worst Nightmare Is Yet To Come

i'm feeling very down..

i hate my life.. i thought it was getting better, but no..
i hate myself.. i hate every detail about me..
why do i need to live..
i hate it..!
i hate myself..
why is life so unfair???????????????????????
i hate it..
kill me now.. i don't want to continue living..
it just hurts me!
i hate myself..

why does it have to be like this..?
sh*t!!

i thought of it before.. this is going to be my "worst year!"
many proofs had come.!
i hate it.!!
zoom to 2010 please!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate this life...
can't i just be reincarnated to a different person where i can't face hardships?a Pharaoh maybe..
i just hate it!!!!!
can you imagine you yourself being regretted by someone?? it hurts!!
it deeply hurt me.. deep through my veins.! i hated it..
fcukingly! damn.!
i hate it very much!
let's just zoom to 2010 please.!!! 2009 is my worst year!!! damn..
damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..
damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..
damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..
damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..
damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..
damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..
damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..
damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..damn..

Doubts

isn't it hard to think when you know that someone doesn't trust you?
don't you just hate it when someone has doubts about you?

it's like standing on top of a log in the raging ocean with a friend and you don't know if that friend will trust you and let you stay or just have a doubt on you and throw you away..
amf.. it really hurts to know that someone very spcial to you just throw away their trust because of a simple misunderstanding..very childish? but if you just know how it feels maybe you'll be as down as me..

i can spend the day just staring in my computer and think about why would someone have a doubt on me..i don't lie to someone special like "that person".. i hate it..i hate it..i hate it..i hate it..!!!!!!!!

why would there be a part of your life where you need to think about how to reconciliate with someone and say sorry when you've done nothing wrong???????????????????????

stupid!!!!!!
very stupid!!
d*mn..!!!!
d*mn it!!
sh*t!!
fcuk!!!
#@$%%#^#$^@#%!@#%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What A Brilliant Idea

hehe.. i have a new typing and printing job business..

my neighbor gave me the idea.. and like it was brilliant!!!
:)

well, off to doing their projects.. hehe... bye bye..

Chill

this was a nice day chilling with rhia and iza..
this was supposed to be a bullsquared chill time but like the others didn't join us, leaving us three..
even though, we still had a great time..

we watched a movie.. drank.........iced tea.. haha
we totally got hungry while watching AFC.. haha.. yummy barbecue..! i want to talk the savory flavour of beef, pork and chicken... awiee..
like being bored, we slept and lay ed down for a few minutes..
hahaha..

it was really fun..
btw, check out their cool sites:
http://doodle-rhia.blogspot.com - rhia
http://greenerthangreene.blogspot.com - iza

cool sites ^ ..

that's all for the day..
and yeah.. rhia - the hotdogs and ice cream was totally good for my tastebuds..hehe..

when will we chill next?

Very Very Confused

what am i gonna do?
i'm very confused in what college i'm gonna go to..

being a fourth year student is a very hard job..
you need to pick what you really want to do throughout your life..
it's the time that you need to choose whether you want to just lay back or continue studying;
become a teacher, be a boss, be an architect, be an engineer..
but there will be a time that somehow there is someone that you want to be with during college but it's really hard because you chose different courses..
what the heck.. if you want to be with your friends you can right? but the main reason of college is not being together with your friends but about being confident with yourself, learning more about life and getting ready for your grown-up jobs..

if you want to be successful, you should balance between work and play..
you should have enough time for your serious studies and enough time for your friends..

it's really confusing what to choose right?
amf..
i'm getting dizzier and dizzier as time goes closer to graduation..
graduation means "of to college" and it's really hard to let go of high school life..
it's like, high school is really fun and going out of it would be a very very miserable task for everyone but why would you want to leave it?..
can't we just study our courses in high school?
it sounds easier..

i wanna be surrounded with people i know..
i don't want a place where i'm an out caste, a loner, alone..
i'm monophobic for God's sake..
i think i can't deal with college alone..
well, i really can't..

i just want a sign or something..
i hate thinking about the future..
can't we just have fun today and the future will just wait..

God knows our destiny..
why can't we?
i think it's for us to be prepared..
for us to expect..
for us to be ready..
for us to learn..
God is our guide in life..
He knows whether we're doing the right thing or the wrong..
He'll be there when we made the wrong choice and help us get out of it..

i just hope God will help me through this apocalypse i'm going through..
i don't know what to do next..
what move to make..
to just be stable, to run, to fight..

i want to know what i need to do..
i'm very confused on what i wanna be..
i want to know what i will be..
who i will be..

i want to recommend Demi Lovato's song
WHO WILL I BE.. from Camp Rock..

my favorite part of the song:

" who will i be it's up to me, all the never ending possibilities

that i can see, there's nothing that i can't do"

"if i can become anyone and know the choice is up to me..

Who will I be? "

Finally

this is the last day of the 3rd periodical exam..
yey!! the test is finished..
i just wish that i passed my exams.. he he..

well, thanks to my classmates for being THERE in my time of NEED..hehehehe..

hmm..
tomorrow., no classes..
MAPUA here i come.. hehe.. :)


CHILL SPOT..

where will we chill bullsquared peeps?
comment here..
or just text me..
my phone is always open,,
:)


oh yah.. i have a post..:)

Yay!!

happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to me..
happy birthday happy birthday...
Happy Birthday To Me.. :)


yay..
it's January 21st..

thank you very mich to all those people who greeted me..!
i love you all..!!!!
thank you!!

:)

this turned out to be a really great birthday..
i've been recieving many greetings since last night..
thank you very much!
:)

Hours To Go

yey.. just a few hours 'til my birthday..
can't wait!!!
i'm going to be 16..!! yay..

luurrrve it..
hehe..

What's The Difference?

ever noticed how i spelled weird? it's WIERD..

what's the difference?

weird is ill fortune (acccdg to merriam-webster dictionary)

while

wierd is my kind of weird..haha.. it's rem style..and i luuurve it.. hahahahahah.. it's just i feel a large amount of weirdness in this word.. its like the super superlative of weird.. no questions asked.. haha

Wierd Dream

i had a very wierd dream last night..
and it was too long.. well i slept for like 11 hours what do you expect..

it started at school..
all of a sudden everyone has super powers and we were supposed to save this girl that has been taken over by a dark shadow that needs her body to take over the world..
everyone in school turned into hyper people and became super heroes.. others became villains though..
some helped the shadow to take over the girl's body and when they did, they tried to take over the whole school but the superheroes did not make it happen..
when we finally put up a stop on the shadow taking over the girl's body, we thought that the apocalypse already stopped..
after a few days, me and specifically, Rhia, were hanging out in the mall.. but suddenly another girl in a school uniform came running towards us and won't let us be out of her sight.. the feeling was so horrid..!
when we noticed that she was following us in every exit of the mall, we made a run for it.. Rhia already got out but i was stuck inside, it felt like she's controlling my feet., she was holding me..in my arm..
i called up security guards and they helped me out..
we ran as fast as we could to reach the school.. we saw other friends and told them what happened..
she was inside the school now..seemed like she was waiting for us..
slam..she was inside the academy.. we were all terrified with this little kid..how could that be?we were all superheroes..! but when we tried to change to our superhero selves, we can't..

amf.. i woke up.. haha.. there are some parts of the story that i'd rather not discuss..

as you can see.. i'm sooo childish!!! amf.. even my dreams have cartoons in it!!
haha.. if you like my story comment on it!! i think i might post many of my dreams here!! haha

Exam Day

Well, the exams started yesterday but i forgot to mention it..

hmm..
what a big ouch huh?
my birthday ending up as one of the exam days.. wtf..

this will be a hard day because i haven't reviewed..
what the heck.. i have classmates to support me.. haha

the line up for today's exam is:
RESEARCH - heck.. i don't know anything about this.. i'll just review later at school..
BIOLOGY - soooooooooo hard... i'm not a science person for the love of all things... ouchie...
NAT. SCI - the elective.. since the first quarter this is the first time that we had a teacher..wow.. we were so used to iot being a free time.. well, it still is though.. our teacher goes to our room for like, hmm.. twice a month? haha

oh right.. i almost forgot.. hapy fiesta to pinagbuhatan people.. haha..
look out for me and the gang 'coz i'll be there later.. hahaha..
i think i should bring extra clothes with me..


do i need to study? well, i think i should.. hahahaha
bye bye,, i'll have another post i think.. before going to the dumps to study

One Day To Go

yey..!!

one day to go and it's my birthday!!
happy happy reille.. :)

I Want To Go To MAPUA

how the fcuk will i start this..

it's just so hard when you don't know what to do and you just end up hating someone else and blame it on yourself.. how wierd..!

oh right,, i want to go to MAPUA..
my mom won't allow me.. how *shit*

i badly want to go to this college.. MAPUA in makati city..
but there's this one factor that my mom is always pushing through..
"if i want to go to MAPUA i'd rather choose going to intramuros campus"
but i don't like it there.. haayyy......
*getting wierded* *shit!*